Work Loads, Suprises, Happy MoMeNtS

hey.. long time didn't have the time, to sit down, have a good blog entry.. hmm.. i always think, do everyone, tend to have sth to write in here, til there's a slip of mouth, and when reprimanded, then they say, opps sorry i didn't meant to.. arghhhh.. anyway, not my problem la..

Nothing interesting, well on the 12th Feb, last day of New Year, Christina, came over to my house and have lunch.. haha.. we were discussing on the course of we are going to take in the poly as well.. then in the evening she went back home..

Actualli, on the 7th Feb onwards, was starting to train on IVP.. this one came a total suprise for me.. never tot of being selected.. in fact, being selected was ok, training was ok.. but on actual day.. hmmm.. we will see how ba..

On the 16th Feb, hmmm.. GDS (German Conference) haha, was teaching them Chinese again.. heehee.. fun fun.. one of the guys was so enthusatics to learn chinese, and abt chinese new year.. after that i went to work..

On the 17th Feb, friday is parade day.. haha.. this is always a day to look forward to.. i like my contingent 6.. they are fun, keen.. talk lot also la.. but when the time to get serious they know it man.. but so sad.. the following week i will be with GOH contingent, why why.. but that's another story..

On the 18th Feb, saturday, working day.. hmm.. today is the Campcraft competition for the boys.. wah, heard they done up everything in 9 mins and 38 sec.. whooo.. well done boys.. couldn't go and support them... but i know that my othere CIs are doing a good job.. but am i doing a good one too?? I dun think so.. hardly go back to unit is a bad bad case already.. haiz..

On the 19th Feb, this days marks Evonne's starting a new life over in Australia.. went to see her off today..Eric was there too.. good enough, my tears didn't drop heehee.. actualli, cried a while when i wrote the card.. anywayz.. she will be back wad.. so juz keep in contact wif her all this while can le ma...

Evonne and Me

Evonne, Me, Eric

On the 20th feb, today is my forst day of roller-skating class.. i cried.. hehe, why, i fall on my butt, 3 times.. it hurts there and in my heart, i feel such a failure.. hmmm sad sad.. but christina says that i can do other things beta ar.. hmmm.. haiz..

hmmmm.. today is the 22nd feb, today training was at Simei.. i got a back-trust frm Jason today.. i will never forget man.. and today was piss off at another matter as well.. I always think that, whenever if you want to know something, juz name it straight, and mind you, know how your relationship wif others is like, b4 asking about somebody's ongoing stuffs.. and i hate ppl who likes beat ard the bushes..

23rd Feb, today is investiture rehearsal.. was ok la.. but i am wondering why.. some guys juz can't shut up, after given the  warning to.. hehe.. wished Deli happy birthday thru sms, and he came calling back.. was too busy to talk to him much, as i was going thru my mcee script.. tml will be a day to look forward to..

24th feb, this morning have to wake up super early to get things ready, for both investiture and parade later on.. hey, court shoe hurts man, i found out that my foot is one big and one small but a size of 1 or 2.. arghh.. my left one got blister, while my right one dun.. lucky.. if not no need to march.. anyway, as tradition comes by, Tampines SC is always the breaking rules and special performances.. not bad man.. comes to the parade part... wah, my contingent 6 got a Ci teaching them le.. no need to miss them so much le.. haha.. was quite unbearing to leave that contingent at first la.. but can see that they are in good hands.. so no need ot worry so much.. hmmm.. GOH was quite rigid at first, very hard to make them smile.. but i have my best accomplishment of the day, they laugh eventually.. hey, u see. lianyu cna make cadets laugh ok.. not that i can't is whether i want to anot.. I learn alot these past few parades.. especially nowadays kids, u scold and scold also no point they won't listen, one ear go in, the other ear out.. ahh.. u see... tired man.. really.. my whole week so packed up..

25th feb, saturday.. haiz.. today is the weight in day.. at NTU.. hmm.. i went running 3 rounds, but only drop 1 kg.. haiz.. after tat i went to work.. in the evening, i got coffee talk.. haha.. Zhi wei, Lingyan, Darren, Shiek were there.. there were funny stories flying around.. hardly have this kind of sessions.. so is always fun to relax a while..

26th feb, went visiting my friend's grandpa today, and i went to eat in the hospital canteen.. haiz.. change le.. so not that nice to eat.. haha

27th feb, i make a little accomplishment today, i ran in 12 min 28 sec during training.. was a little too happy la.. hehhe.. but really, never ran so fast b4.. haha.. today training was good.. stretch a lot as well...

28th feb.. today is classification shoot.. wah.. quite a number of marksman in individual schools.. for my school, thanks to WCI Suriani, training them.. haha.. the girls did well in their campcraft as well.. good for them.. though i remember being the wet blanket.. hey sorry.. i didn't meant to... I didn't went to tkd training, phone flat.. haiz.. make someone angry.. that's bad man, promise won't do that again..

this marks my whole Feburary.. quite a lot of activities right.. bz bz bz.. hehehe.. will add in my march when i am free...

Ch|NeSe NeW YeAr CeLeBratIoN...

haha, added in abt surf and sweat but didn't talk abt the new year, felt abit weird .. so added this in.. hehe..

On 27th Jan, I went shopping with Christina.. hehe.. we were looking ard and see if we could get a top for me in Chinese New Year.. Find, Find, Find.. then we found the Mickey mouse tee.. i like the colour and the short alot.. really.. Alan called when i am eating dessert, inviting me over to his steamboat celebration for his 21st Birthday.. well wad can i say.. ok la.. i will go then... After that, we went to get Christina's bookmark, then go home... yups**

On the 28th Jan, did nothing much really.. was trying to repair the blog.. again.. as the skin weren't appear.. then help mummy to see anything not done.. i remember i slept til 11am plus plus.. oh ya, was preparing bag for the next day outing.. then at the clock strikes midnight, my mummy gives me Hong Bao.. Love you mummy..

On the 29th Jan.. haha, guess wad.. i spent the whole day in Christina's house.. why, my parents all went out.. i got nothing to do.. so i make it a special day.. spent the first day of new year with an Indian friend.. fun fun fun.. we got the whole day watching cartoon.. eating and playing games... Thanks her mummy for Hong Bao as well..

On the 30th Jan.. nothing much either, spent the whole day slackign at home.. wathcing tv.. making Alan'a birthday card.. then in the evening, my mummy came home and brought my sister to Padang to watch the fair.. Eric was there too.. haha, he called me and ask if i was there, I told him, only my sister and mummy.. I am watching tv at home.. yeah..

On the 31st Jan.. haha, today all the TKD members that can make it for the visiting met at Katib MRT station.. we all went to visit Mr Low.. almost the whole day sit there and wawtch cartoon.. hehe.. some of them were playing cards with Jason.. after that we took club photos and left.. I went to visit my friend, and slept in her house accidently.. I didn't knoe wor.. until she woke me up.. guess wad.. I'm late.... then i rushed to take bus then train.. hah, on the way have to tell Alan.. arhh.. i am late.. sorry.. hehe.. feel so bad.. then take train to Marina South.. hmmm.. get to knoe some new friends la.. we played pool after that, then went to Party World in Orchard.. all the way to 4.30am in the morning, by the time i reached home.. my sis is preparing for school.. wah. mummy starts her nag le.. hehh.. i went to afternoon class.. then went home company mummy.. she says, is miracle.. wah.. hehe.. So this was how i passed my 3 days of New Year.. hehe..

3rd Feb: Today is the 1st training for parade.. i felt refresh suddenly..is juz that.. every year you will see different batches and types of cadets.. ha ha.. I went there late..due to now is in HTA, Home Team Academy.. in Choa Chu Kang.. after parade.. we went to eat.. stories that are super super funny was laid on the table man.. hehe.. I laughed til my jaws were numb.. hehe.. but i truely enjoyed the day.. super tired though.. tml got to work..

4th Feb: Working today, almost dozing everywhere.. haha.. today is also Chingay day.. hmm.. i dun find this year parade nice.. I still find it nicer last year.. tml surf and sweat.. so ya.. see how la..

Hyper, Fun Fun Fun...

Yo, Yo.. just got free to come in and have an entry.. i wonder sometimes.. is this place is going to be my shout out of feelings space.. though, i dun get comments back, or either, no one read.. well i dunno..

Now as i am typing, my shoulder is burning hot man.. really burnt.. This morning I had my 2.4km NAFA run.. guess wad??? I Passed le la.. i tot i will fail.. but in the end still manage to scrape it thru.. Phew!!

Yesterday i went for the Surf n Sweat 2006 in Sentosa, organized by NTU.. Wow.. Place is filled up wif hunks and babes.. Me, evonne and 2 of her friends, Rehan and Derrick went for the event.. Me and Derrick were in the open events.. while Rehan and Evonne in the mixed event.. hehe.. Derrick event was the first to finished.. So he was relaxing, sun bathing.. and wadever things to kill the boredom la.. my event was the second one.. at registration, I found someone familar, in the end i found out, is Suzhen. haha, got scolded by her, asking me, if I dunno her le huh.. hehe.. hey, surfing in singapore is totally out la.. but i have my fun anywayz.. this is the first time i surf, but all i need to do is to use my arms juz like the paddle for kayak or canoe.. fun, though i was the last to reach in my batch for the srufing session due to i lost my way... i have my fun.. running part was ok.. there were guidelines.. the slope was an obstacle one.. but other than that, i still manage a smile back to the finish line.. yeah..   I saw Darren too.. haha, same old him.. he went for the Men Open event, under SAFRA.. woah, was surprised to see him there.. I was looking out for Adrian, but couldn't find him.. We went to watch the strongest man event, wow.. fun hehe.. Then, came the waiting for the mixed event.. Evonne was sian man, no mood also haha.. both of them, start to push the responsiblility of who should go which event, but in the end Evonne still went for the Surf one.. Well she is a good one.. got in first for her batch.. After collecting the goodie bags, we went for lunch.. and Evonne and I went shopping at Queensway. She recommended a shop that sells really cheap rubberbands.. and i went to get new slippers.. hehe.. Then we went Ikea, she got Rehan a cute cushion for his 21st birthday.. hehe.. that marks the end of my day.. i have a good sleep, though short.. but am happy enough.. I am sure that i will want to join Surf n Sweat next year again.. fun fun fun

Ya, this is our Sun-Burnt Look le.. hehe

ok, then i guess.. i will log off for while.. come back again..

WhAt Am | nOw???

Whoah, free and back to school at last.. feelings have never been so great to see Christina, my buddy and some of the classmates...

But am i back to earth, I'm very sure of myself, that well, i am not back yet, why, i dunno... through ehat had happen in the attachment period.. what i ahve been going through in mind... No, I'm still in mid air...

Everyone would always like to find out things, of this n that.. why? Why can't you leave that some one alone for a while, when he/she is ready to talk, they will..When I initated a break-up, i have asked myself a thousand million questions... Is it worth to break it up? Has he done anything wrong? What am i to do that? Why am i doing that? What i think it up now, I no longer hold the chemistry there, I couldn't find back the feelings.. Has someone else intruded into my world? The flat straight answer is NO..Do i feel good these days? NO, I dunno why.. i just lost something out, but i dun wan to have it back as i dun want to hurt anyone else.. You think i enjoy bringing wounds to people? No man, No.. Even when i smile these days, I am thinking, am i really really happy??? Why not you tell me.. Tell me if i am giving you a really happy smile?

Hey, I dun like seeing people unhappy, if you think you cannot talk to me, then dun.. But i will still feel sad whenever i see someone sad.. It affects me, when everyone ard me is hsowing a sad face.. Why, i dunno.. so SaD.. I'm just tired myself out now, I dun really wnat to show attitude.. really.. is this an excuse, no.. Too bad.. it really hard to get to know people these days isn't it?

Returning to parades life soon.. I am happy in doing so.. why, as i don't care too much in there.. I just want to see more kids in uniform more about the days ahead, before i dun havemuch time in doing so, studies up.. hehe.. In school, I have to start my NYAA stuffs and complete before July.. Taekwondo, 1st day back in training.. fun.. tiring, but juz glad.. can have a good sleep, but nightmares are always there to wake u up again in wee hours.. damn.. really stressed... why am i having all these nightmares..

Guess i will stop here for now.. after CNY then i will fill in, as nothing is more exciting, unless u count, NAFA exciting..

May i have some more peace and back to earth soon..

Wah, 1 week didn't entry or dunno how many days la.. but wadever it is.. very shit feelings.. and wadever feeling that is negative u name it, i have it..

Why is it, when things are good, ppl dun make good use, but take advangtage, then why is there always to expect so much things out??? Deal is always out, passion always come first..

haiz haiz haiz.. this is how i feel..

More later, promise